Let’s talk a little bit about guilt. I don’t mean the O.J. Simpson kind of guilt, but the kind you carry around with you. Self-imposed guilt, let’s call it.
I’ve got a bit of it knocking around. Occasionally it will rear its ugly head, and I’ll have to do something to rectify the guilt so as to loosen the knot in the pit of my belly. Guilt can be an ugly, ugly thing if it’s left to its own devices.
Take, for example, this ugliness:


I never talked much about how “the trip” came about, because I didn’t want my 4 year old to ever get the impression that it was somehow her fault. That her getting out of bed repeatedly, and me having to go in there and take away her books, and thus walk around her room in the dark, was the cause of my fall. And subsequently, the cause of the blood all over her floor, followed by her daddy cussing in front of her for the first time and her Mommy being rushed to the emergency room.
Are you following?
Yesterday, she walked up to me and said, “I’m sorry, Mommy. I’m sorry I pushed the ball at you when I was mad, and I’m sorry you fell.”
How heavy was the weight that came off of her tiny shoulders when she confessed?
Author: Dre
This is Meghan. And yes, this is the only non-blurry photo I have of her – so deal with it, OK? It’s hard to take good photos when you’re more worried about your wine than setting up the shot.

She is one hard working lady. Not only does she run her own blog, she also has a family to take care of, and a business to run with her husband. On top of all that, she is the madam of AllMediocre, which is the place to be, in case you don’t know. She’s even convinced some AllTop members to consider defecting. Meghan has generously arranged to give away FREE STUFF all week long – not just for AllMediocre members, not even just for bloggers.

So head on over to AllMediocre to get the details on some fabulous prizes. Some time this week, a See’s Candies gift card and a pound of fresh, garden-grown, salmonella-free tomatoes will be up for grabs, donated by yours truly. There will be at least two giveaways every day so what are you waiting for? And speaking of procrastination, if you have a blog and haven’t joined AllMediocre yet, get right on that.
* Blogging business has officially been taken care of. Your regularly scheduled programming will commence tomorrow. I promise! *
New Friends
Put me in front of a huge crowd and ask me to speak on pretty much any topic, and I’ll rock the house. Public speaking is no big thang. Push me into the same crowd and tell me to socialize? I couldn’t come up with a coherent sentence to save my life. Which is why, upon meeting me, people often come away with the impression that I’m either a total snob or a freak. A freak I may be, but a snob I am not.
But if meeting new people is my kryptonite, alcohol is the antidote. Get a glass or two of wine into me, and there’s no shutting me up. I’ll share my life story and just about any personal information, if given the opportunity. It speeds the getting to know you process quite a bit.
That said, I’ve made some new best good friends here at BlogHer. It took me awhile, mainly because the wine didn’t start flowing till the evening hours. But I schmoozed just about anybody who fell into my line of vision at the Closing Party at Macy’s.

These ladies work at BlogHer, and I chatted them up when I noticed them behind these fab shoes. I didn’t get their business cards, darnit, and of course I can’t remember their names this morning.

Dawn Meehan and I discussed the practicality of some of the lingerie surrounding us. I think I also talked to her about my uterus. I told you my personal filter disappears.
As I refilled my wine glass, I met Dana Kavan from the Chicago Examiner, bumped into VDog, compared thrift store finds with Cat, and gushed over Christine‘s amazing sense of style.




This morning, I blogged side-by-side with Bossy in the lobby, her mac next to my pc.

Then Mocha Momma paid me the compliment of a lifetime by calling me fascinating, based on a tangent I went off on the night before on the Hmong community in my town. Because, yeah, I know an inordinate amount of information about their culture and could easily give a speech about it.
But for someone to call me fascinating based on a conversation I had in a new social setting? That, my friends, is a true testament to the power of wine.
Going, Going… GONE!
I made it to BlogHer! I’m sitting here at the Opening Key Note, learning about hybrid media with the sound of fingers tap-tap-tapping away on keyboards around me. I’ve never seen so many laptops in one place!
You know what else I’ve never seen so much of in one place? FREE stuff. I’m carrying around at least a 10 pound bag of freebies. I lost my awesome Sigg water bottle within the first 10 minutes, but what did I find waiting for me at breakfast? A FREE Sigg bottle. These BlogHer people sure know their audience.
So far everyone has been incredibly nice and super, super friendly. I’ve heard that the content of the sessions leaves something to be desired, but I’m looking forward to finding out for myself. If I’m not impressed, well, the wine starts flowing early in these parts!
For those of you who aren’t at BlogHer but WISH you were, go on over to Mommypie for BlogHerNot 08.
Procrastination, Anyone?
I decided to be on top of things and pack for BlogHer today, even though I don’t leave until pre-dawn on Saturday. I couldn’t find my small suitcase anywhere. Finally, I gave up in frustration, and went about my day.
But then, I noticed something.
Whose idea was it to leave a whole bunch of clutter right in front of my sewing desk? And also? I think I set a procrastination record for myself.
Because, yeah, that suitcase is full of clothes that we brought back from our trip to Arizona. In May. They were clean, but now they obviously need to be washed.
You want to know the absolute worst part about the whole thing? Rather than unpack the suitcase and clean off the fur, I took a picture and got out a different overnight bag. No sense disturbing the cat!